“Arms Over The Abyss”

My newest reoccurring dream involves my arms reaching out over a cliff side that seems to have no bottom and no horizontal connection. It’s a very odd sensation…it feels like weightlessness and euphoria and sheer terror all at the same time. A boundless out stretching of limbs into a void that doesn’t compute to the human mind. A total mental whirlwind.

Now when I wake up I find myself rigid and stuck in one spot. Eyes open, throat begins to close and chest seizes…it’s like waking up from ketamine.

Absolutely horror.

It’s better for me to feel that than nothing or anger or loss. It’s become a great way to exchange one evil for another.