“Feeling It”

So with the highs come the lows and that’s to be expected in all things in life. It’s been a struggle over the years and it doesn’t always get easier but it does become more manageable when you have a rough idea of when the lows are going to roll in. This time of year gets rough and I’m more mentally prepared to handle this stretch of time.

Tomorrow marks two years from when I made a huge decision and changed a great deal of things in life. It’s strange to look back on it but I still do and I know where I was then and where I am now and it’s vastly different. Two years ago it was a HUMONGOUS low point and it still makes me mentally itchy in ways. I don’t know how else to describe it. Psychologically itchy.

When these lows hit me I find ways to distract myself so I don’t let my mind run away with itself or so I don’t break down and have a full blown breakdown or cry fest. It is what it is and there’s no going back now. I won’t even pose the rhetorical question after. Too much time has passed and too much has happened in between to change life into another round about path to what once was.

For the time being I’ll be off in my own world where I can weather the storm ahead so when I come out on the other side I’ll be just fine and ready for another day going forward, not stuck in purgatory or regressing backward.

Time. Reflection. Realization. Progress.